Random and the new look blogger is freakin me out

I'm not sure this will even work as I think the software at work is not compatible to the new look blogger or something. I went out to a daytime gig on saturday at the Ivy. Which was suprisingly good, I was convinced there was no way I was getting in due to not possibly having the look they were after. But no fear as it was a Laundry sponsored gig (Chinese Laundry not the generic washing kind) everything was good to go. The venue was great, in the connecting laneway there were all these suspended bird cages which were fantastic to look at and then the inside was just as impressive. The company was good as there managed to be about 15 of us in the end. The crowd were generally good and there weren't too many glamours or annoying people and finally the dj's played awesome sets. To which Bella and I stayed dancing till we left at 7pm (yes an adult gig that finished at 7pm).
Here is a list of random occurances of the night (I love when things like this happen)-
1. A homeless guy gave me directions to the Ivy. I thought he was asking for a lighter but he was kindly pointing me to the entrance which was hard to find.
2. I only received 2 cigarette burns and one headbutt and only nearlly ended up in one fight.
3. Three of our party were asked to leave for being too out of it.
4. A nice young man kindly asked Bella if he could dance with me.
5. The guys weren't too sleazy.
6. I was in bed by 9.30pm but sadly sleep was not my friend.

I have discovered the best way for me enjoy work at the moment by accidentally having my nerve blocking medication making me feel slightly not as sharp as usual. It's been awesome, tripping through the days and even though I've had some heated arguments and other not so funny things happen they have seemed funny to me. And also when I had an old guy tell me he didn't mean to sound sleazy but I had a nice figure I laughed it off.

I promise to post photo's soon.

As per usual just slack at posting

That about suns it up at the moment but there hasn't really been alot going on. I do have some photo's to post but am typing this at work so don't have the photo's.

I have deferred my study for the moment (not really sure I'll go back to teaching though) for a variety of reasons:
a) submitted the first major assignment and was pretty sure it would fail.
b) felt like I couldn't put in an adequate effort combined with working, looking after Dios and pretty much having to do most of the house work at home.
c) remembered how much I hated studying
d) wasn't really sure I wanted to be a teacher.
e) care factor was minimal
f) not sure I want to spend Dios' growing years not really being there for him.

So as per usual its back to the drawing board on the whole career thing, actually I'm a bit over it. Some days I can convince myself its not that bad- work is pretty cruisy, don't get hassled alot and I leave work at work. But most of the time it's hard to convince myself that I love staring at a computer and writing reports on stuff where the care factor is low.

I made Dios some 'icecream' last night and found it rather tasty and super easy. The only thing in terms of preparation is having frozen bananas handy.
I mixed four frozen bananas with a hand held mixer (thanks Kao for the Chrissy present) and then added some Jalna bush honey yoghurt. Mix till the consistency is creamy. Pretty good and pretty healthy plus gets rid of over ripe babana's.

I'll post photos soon.

Fashion fail

My thongs have broken, not just having blown out but they have actually developed holes under the ball of the foot plus being blown out. Maybe not that sad but when they developed holes I realised that they had become my only pair of open summer shoes. Then on reflection I realised that I am definitely going through a fashion fail phase. Maybe I can get my act together for next Spring/Summer and wear something other than thongs. Might be asking too much, we will see.

So far on my quest to be a little kinder to the planet I have purchased a re-usable water bottle and not done much more than that. Pretty slack, I know.

Dios is walking and climbing everything. Pretty cute watching him toddle around.

I have been doing my Grad Dip in teaching for four weeks now and its a bit of a shock to the system. My brain definitely ain't what it used to be. I have to do a Slow Motion project for one of my assignments which has got me slightly stumped at the moment.

Feeling blah

Well I've been feeling blah about pretty much everything lately, but I did find this awesome blog called little eco footprints-http://www.littleecofootprints.com/. Which is very inspiring but also remidns me how crap I have been at trying to reduce my eco footprint. Something I need to get a handle on, small steps will buy a reusable drink bottle this week and then build to trying not to buy things from the supermarket.
Dios had his 12 month check this week and during that check it made me wonder if people always tell the truth when they are being psychologically questioned. I had to fill in a depression scale question sheet and when the nurse was asking me some questions after I had filled it in I realised I was glossing over how I was feeling sometimes (nothing major just missing having friends , over house work and wondering how my life ended up being so white bread). But I didn't really feel like discussing it further, so got me questioning does anyone tell the truth, the whole truth?????

Perfect day

I was thinking the other day 'What would my perfect day be?'
So here is briefly what I thought, there are some censored bits.

• Sunrise run on the beach with the dogs;
• breakfast, no specifics on the type of food but I wouldn't be cooking or cleaning up;
• pilates session and then a swim at the beach;
• lunch with all my friends, once again I ain't cooking
• afternoon horseride;
• dinner with friends again;
• an evening spent dancing to my favourite dj's;
• watching the sun come up.

Thrown in there would be time spent hugging and playing with my little boy and time spent with his dad. Awesome food and beverages is a must as is the company I would keep on this journey. We can but dream, hey. My days aren't quiet like that. The other day which was memorable I managed to spill dog biscuits all through the kitchen, have wheetbix thrown on me and loose a botton on my shirt. When at work I discovered other crusty wheetbix, legs that needed shaving plus toe nails that hadn't been painted for god knows how long in shoes that displayed said legs. Got to stare at the computer for 8 hours then home to cleaning, dinner needing to be cooked and a lawn to mow.

Cake faces

First birthday cake face

Chase enjoying birthday cupcakes

Rosie

So the first birthday has come and gone and we celebrated by having a pub lunch with cupcakes. It was a lovely day and made more wonderful by all the people that came. Thank you everyone. Dios really loved his gifts, playmates and the cupcakes.

Initially I started out trying to find a sugar free cake recipe but as Kao pointed out birthdays only happen once a year so a little sugar isn't that harmful. The cupcakes didn't look that beautiful but they tasted pretty good. The recipe is as follows (or what I can remember anyway)-

2 eggs

125mls cream

1 cup of self raising flour

3/4 cup caster sugar

tspn vanilla

I added one cup of coconut

Mix all  this together place in cupcake casing and bake in a 180 degree C oven for 15-20mins.

I added lemon, coconut and cream cheese icing to the cupcakes when they cooled.

Things that make me happy

Lately I have been able to go for a few runs and also a few horse rides ( yay) which has made me extremely happy to be back in the saddle as they say. It seems the older I am getting the more I like doing the same stuff I did when I was younger. Riding again is a bit of a tease though as I drive further than the time I get riding.But hey beggers can't be choosers.

Someone buy me this pony? He is an andalusian that is at the place I go riding.

This is Libby, well her eye anyway.

Dios turned one yesterday, we got there. I'm sure there will be alot more to learn now but things did seem to get easier from the 6 month point. Still forget I'm a mum most days though (when I'm away from him that is).

He has four teeth at the moment aswell.

catch up

Once again I've managed to let the time slip away, so Bali, Christmas, New Years and my return to work have passed. It's seem all very quickly.
Bali was interesting, I managed to have about three days of not being sick and then got a horrible case of Bali belly from swimming in the ocean after a storm. The water was a lovely brown colour with heaps of floaty's.
I managed to stand up surfing and got two days worth of surfing in before the sickness took over. We did at least three hours of yoga a day which was awesome. The place we stayed at was pretty amasing, it belonged to a french family who only stay there two weeks of the year.
The Balinese poeple were lovely and apart from the sickness was a great holiday that I would recommend to anyone.
Christmas and New Years went without many hitches which was good. I ended up having to have a drip and some heavy antibiotics hours before we headed to Blah Blah Blah, that hydration sure helped me dance the night away:)

standing up, wahoo

I've been back at work for four weeks and it sure aint what I was imagining when I was doing the full time mothering thing. It's nice to leave the house and interact with other adults but the work is insanely boring so I've enrolled in teaching to get me away from planning (finally).
Dios turns one soon, no walking yet but that will come and then I'll regret it.

Not long now

Less than  a week till I go to Bali, feeling slightly freaked out but everything is booked and paid for. I haven't packed my bag yet but that will come.

 I'm sending a massive wish to what ever gods there are that my little boy is ok and enjoys the time with Dad and Aunty Bella.

I've found a horse to ride (sort of tick on my list of wants) she is a warmblood mare that is rather green but has lovely paces. I went for a ride on Sunday and am going again this weekend. Can't wait riding again reminded me how much I have missed it and that instead of kicking myself for not being crafty I need to remember the things I'm good at and have a passion for.

Dios and I went and visited my friend Peta today in Gloucester and met her new baby girl. So cute, it was funny though seeing a new born made Dios look huge when I consider him to be tiny.

More photos

I have new editing software that I have no idea how to use ( need a manual but know I'll fail to read that just like I have failed to read the manual for my camera) but I have been having a bash anyway. What I want to do is pop art some of the cow photos so once I've worked that out I'll let you know.

Dad and bub- this was when Dios first came home.

Muss

I love cows they have such beautiful eyes

Usual story

Due to the usual things happening when I try to do something ( no credit for internet, car break downs and my tardiness and uncertainty) I failed to enter a photo in the Canon comp. So here are a few I prepared earlier-

This was the picture I had planned to enter.

So usual story I don't think they are very good but it was fun taking the photos.

I turned sideways

I turned sideways this morning and realised that I am now (thanks to breastfeeding etc) seriously flat chested. Not that I had alot to begin with but I am a little sad at this. How quickly they go
 I am now possibly a A cup:( I know its a very trivial issue).

Canon are running a photo competition where you have to take photos featuring a umbrella, I have had one unsatisfactory attempt and now the weather has become feral. But anyway here are a couple of shots.

Since Dios has recovered from his illness he has returned to crawling with vengence, for the first time ever he crawled the full length of the mat they use at swimming. Also he is pulling himself up on everything, which he thinks is awesome. Although yesterday he gave himself a horrible bump when he went head first into a table.

Look what I can do!!!!!!

Sick little boy

I have a sick bub, I took Dios to the doctors on Tuesday because he was overly tired, grizzly and had a temperature. The doctor diagnosed it as a virus, so poor Dios has spent the last four days being quiet unwell with high temps when the weather has also been hot. Today the temps are down BUT unfortunately he is still upset and has a rash so after a call to the health hotline it will be back to the doctors tomorrow. Poor little buddy he is trying so hard to be happy.

Two outings in one week, over load.

Last night I went and saw Arj Barker at the Doylo. Arj Barker was pretty funny but the crowd at the Doylo were slightly scary. They were hectling the comedians but because of their inability to articulate properly it was really hard to understand what they were yelling.

Tomorrow, thanks to my awesome sister, I'm off to Harvest festival to see Portishead. It's been ten years since I last saw them so can't wait.

Dios is crawling which is pretty cool to watch. Yesterday he was crawling after seagulls, he is a determined little dude.

On another baby related note, Dios is nearlly weaned. Just one breastfeed left to go. As part of my weaning plan I am trying to introduce liquids other than formula. So thought I would try goatsmilk, well true to form goats milk is not high on his list of yummy things. Although pretty much any other food is, at the library the other day a little girl was eating a mandarin and Dios wasn't too happy that it wasn't his.

Oops nearlly a month since I posted last

Island Vibe

But I have been busy and also forgetting what day it was. Dios has been to his second island and we have had a great time at Island Vibe.

Things I have learnt

Time seems to be getting away from me at the moment so sorry for not posting for awhile. Not alot has happened but there are a few things I have learnt over the past two weeks-

1. A new dance, we shall call it the raincoat dance. Bella and I invented this one at Parklife. It's not very sexy and its rather uncomfortable to do as it requires dancing whilst wearing your raincoat, which in my case is rather large. Also the raincoat dance will shred you stockings when the velcro catches them with every move.

2. Festivals are not that fun when you are straight.Also festivals tend to be frequented by weirdoes.

3. Sex shops need sexing up. The interiors need a makeover and also staff need to be a little bit more attractive.

Dios is trying his hardest to crawl and can get up on all fours but when he moves forward he tends to face plant.

How am I going to achieve my want list?

Thanks for commenting on my wish list Em, it reminded me that I need to have some type of actions in relation to the wish list so here is my action list for my wish list-
1.A house of my own where I could have a veggie garden, paint what I want and not have to deal with bitch landlords.
Well this one is the hard one in economical terms anyway. So the beginning for this one is to start saving, which also relies on No. 4 and also me becoming better at saving. I have a million and one things I want to do with a house of my own but the savings is the first bit. I can probably start on the veggies though and plan to plant some seeds soon. Due to the bitch of a landlord that owns this place not allowing us to plant anything it will be in pots which I will have to remember to water.

2.A horse of my own that I can do dressage and eventing with.
In my spare time when Dios is asleep I have already been daydreaming over my horse via the internet and varius websites. First step though involves pinning Beau down as to whether we are staying in the area or moving. Second back to work to get funding. I'm looking at an ex-racehorse at this stage as that is more achievable then buying the warmblood I drool over.
3.Travel.Travel. Travel. Travel. Travel.
This is a never ending statement but I'm off to Bali in December so I guess a portion of this is achieved. Then Spain within the next few years.
4.To go back to work.
Work has requested I go back three days a week starting in January so I have to arrange care for Dios. I might have to expand this statement to also finding a job that isn't boring but I'll stick with go back to work until I've gone back to work.

WAHOOOO

I'm prefixing this post with a massive massive touch wood. On Sunday for the first time since December I am going to a music gig. Massive thanks must go to Kao who will be babysitting whilst I go to Parklife for about four hours.  Four hours is awesome, adult time. The last gig I went to I fainted at so I'm hoping not to repeat that performance.

I have had episode of back pain recently and its funny how you forget what pain feels like. It's been so long since my back has been bad that I had forgotten what actual pain feels like. I think though it appears to be getting better. Due to the back episode I had to trade in the baby bjorn I was walking with and have no upgraded to a ergo which is weird and kinda like a backpack. You can hardly feel 9kg's though which is a bonus.

PETA has a triple X domain

and will be soon making porn to encourage people to become vegan. That's it not much else to say really apart from wondering whether this will indeed increase the number of vegans in the world?????

Wildlife spotting

This weekend Beau, Dios, the dogs and I went to Coffs Harbour on a peace keeping mission. The peace keeping mission was a fail but we stayed in a apartment that had a spa and I did some wildlife spotting. On the drive back from taking the dogs and Dios to the beach I spotted a koala on the road. I stopped the car and got out to make sure the koala was off the road and took these photoes:

Both were taken with my 18-55mm lens so I was about half a metre away from the koala and he/she wasn't bothered at all. The poor thing looks like it has clymadia or some other disease by the clowdy look of its eye. I thought about patting her/him but thought it a bad idea and that I was likely to be bitten and scratched.

Discussions in relation to the failed peace keeping mission got me thinking; is it better to say you love someone when you don't or only say you love someone when you really mean it? Personally I would prefer to know that someone means it when they say they love me.